Jacob Hill | Day 19
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Day 19

19 Jul Day 19

No day 18, read day 17 here.

Day 19

Sunday 19th July 2015


Today was going to be a good day. I woke feeling thrilled that I was going to my first ever Church service in prison. I hadn’t realised how much I missed it and needed it in my life. Somewhere I could think and find serenity.


Walking into Church today, I was rather surprised that it looked no different to a Church on the outside. I kind of expected the altar to be in a cage or something. But the fact that I didn’t look any different kind of helped me to forget where I was for that very short hour. It was lovely.


It was a free church service which is something I am more used to from my church at home. I quite enjoy the freedom, expression and happiness that comes with this type of service, however next week it will be a Church of England service. A little stricter than I am used to but at least it will still be a break from this place.


During the service today there were some inmates who had to sit separate to us in the balcony area. I turned to the guy next to me and asked why and he replied saying ‘they’re all the nonces’. I felt a little uncomfortable by his comment. Obviously, they’re the people from the vulnerable wing, paedophiles and such. I am also wary that due to my parents profession I could have been a vulnerable person if inmates hadn’t taken to me so well. I am also conflicted, surely, they are just as forgiven as we are? No sin is greater than the other, right?


The service consisted of one organ player and some half-arsed singing by everyone. I’d put it down to nerves of not wanting to look silly in front of each other. I’d love it if the worship group from the Elim church back home came with all the instruments. Their worship would fill the entire prison and the ceremony would be fun for all.


I had the opportunity to speak with Claire again and expressed my interest in learning the piano; she has put me in touch with the other pastor who would be able to help me. This may mean access to the piano in the chapel where I would practice from grade 1 working to the point where I could play a song for worship, that would be awesome.


Unfortunately, the service did not end on a refining positive note. As we were leaving a prisoner took something from the prison officer’s jacket when he wasn’t looking. The Prison officer found out and whilst still in church shouted ‘YOU LITTLE BASTARD, YOU’RE A THIEF, YOU’RE A THIEF, YOU’RE A THIEF!’ It was awful to see, especially in a church. I guess it’s bound to happen when some people go to service just to get time off the wing and see their friends from other wings. So if they aren’t here to take it seriously then there is going to be some mischief.


I’m still looking forward to the service next week; Claire said she would like to get Mark, my pastor, in soon.

Bonus day

Day 20

Monday 20th July 2015


Gosh, I am so alone. Mid-shower, I was told by one of the officers that I was being shipped out to Wealstun.

‘WHAT!?, but I’m on hold boss’ I protested.

I practically pleaded with the man.

He looked at my record…


End of part 1

Thank you so much for reading about my first few weeks inside prison. I continued writing my diary every evening, it ended up being over 450 pages long. You can read from the beginning here.

Before I release the rest of the diary, I am really looking for feedback on what you liked and what you did not like – if you could send any comments to: bookings@jacobhill.co.uk it will be a huge help.

Whilst I have reached the end of my prison sentence, I feel like it is the start of my journey – I hope you enjoy the adventure.


Jacob Hill

Prisoner A6344DM

  • Jacob Hill | Day 17
    Posted at 17:25h, 20 July Reply

    […] Read the next day here […]

  • Christopher lavin
    Posted at 20:32h, 24 July Reply

    Reading this just brings so much back. Even seeing your Prison number. I was 48 when I became A5751DC. From a professional person I am now nothing. I cannot find work and it’s only my faith, my wife and son that sustains me. Your diary brings back all those feelings at the beginning of a sentence. I had never been in prison before and was mentally ill. I was initially in the hospital wing as I kept trying to top myself. I find what you write powerful and really moving. Keep it up mate Chris

    • JacobHill
      Posted at 07:56h, 25 July Reply

      Chris, its been a pleasure talking to you since you posted this. Faith is sometimes where we need to begin and work towards everything else falling in place. You are never nothing when you believe in something.

  • Fiona Evans
    Posted at 08:09h, 21 August Reply

    I stumbled upon your blog by accident and I’m so glad I did. What an incredible insight into another world where the majority of any population has absolutely no knowledge. People are too quick to judge and assume but each individual story is unique to that person. None of us can be grouped into a segment of people and labelled indefinitely. Thank you for sharing your story Jacob, it has been a pleasure. Best wishes for your future!

    • JacobHill
      Posted at 08:59h, 19 February Reply

      Thank you Fiona, I hope it encourages more people to share their story.

  • Felicity Garbett
    Posted at 23:21h, 12 February Reply

    Hi Jacob, I’m a dental nurse working at our local prison. I heard about your work at the “2017 national prison dentistry conference” it’s great to read your blog and get a perspective from a prisoners point of view, I think your work is truly inspirational! Keep up the good work!

    • JacobHill
      Posted at 08:58h, 19 February Reply

      Hi Felicity,

      I never even realised we were being mentioned at the National Prison Dentistry Conference. That’s great news thank you very much.

      It would be great to have a further conversation.


  • Sandy
    Posted at 10:35h, 15 February Reply

    Loved it! Can’t wait to read the book.. When will it be published?

    • JacobHill
      Posted at 09:01h, 19 February Reply

      Hi Sandy, we will be putting together a crowdfuning project sometime before the end of this year. Please keep an eye out and subscribe to keep updated.

      Thank you for supporting me.


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