22 Jul My Statement
Statement by Jacob Hill
On the 23 August 2014, I was arrested and subsequently charged with intent to supply Class A and Class B drugs. On the 1st July 2015 I will appear before Leeds Crown Court to receive my sentence after pleading guilty at an earlier opportunity.
I blame no one else for the very serious situation I got myself into. I made those incredibly bad decisions and choices on my own. I broke the law and I completely accept the punishment. I want to repay my debt to society and, in due course, move on with my life.
In the run-up to my arrest I found my life spiralling downwards. I tried, but ultimately could not control this descent. My life had become highly complex, with pressures from business, investors, my education and personal relationships. I should have sought professional help but my own immaturity got the better of me. I chose the easy option to pay off some debts to fellow students who were desperate for the money. I felt guilty that I couldn’t repay them and so landed myself in this situation.
The grief and heartache I have brought down upon my friends and family only make the situation worse. Their suffering is a punishment outside of the law, one which few people ever see. I am truly grateful and humbled by the support I have received from all those who are close to me and whilst the end only now appears to be in sight, I thank them for continuing to be with me through every sleepless night, every breakdown and at every moment where I simply do not know how to cope.
Though I have no right to ask, I do hope that those who are reading this can understand and accept my extreme guilt, shame and true remorse for this whole situation. I am very sorry. I did not handle my demons in the correct way and there can never be any valid excuse for my actions.
Going forward, I will repay my debt to society in the way the Court sees fit. I will do it on the full understanding that I owe this debt because I betrayed the trust of many people and I, alone, broke the law.
I hope one day this will all be behind me and my negative experience will make others think twice when they are in a dark place – there are always other ways to do things right. I hope also that I can turn this huge and traumatic lesson into a positive strength; put my life back on track and continue to make the very most of my business abilities in the future.
I will not be answering any questions or conducting any interviews until my family are ready in order to avoid aggravating the situation for all of my family and my close friends. I have now stepped down as Managing Director of The Lazy Camper which is now in the very capable hands of Colin Gordon, my friend and business partner.
Thank you for taking the time to read my statement.
12/07/15 – An update from Jacob
I am sure you have read by now about my situation and well-deserved sentence. I am purposefully going to keep this update short because I’m still getting used to life in prison. I know what I did was wrong, and I was on bail for 10 months where I had a lot of time to reflect on my actions, and take responsibility to make the most of my life. I’d like to think my efforts over those 10 months and the bonds I formed with my family and friends better reflect who I really am and what I’m capable of when I put my mind to it. I’m massively thankful to all those who gave character references to the judge. It helped reduce the sentence from a potential seven years and I’m grateful for that every day. I was sentenced to 28 months.
Whilst here I plan on being a positive part of this community. I have already completed a mentoring course and I am helping other inmates write letters to friends and loved ones, as well as supporting a couple to build legitimate business plans so they have something to look forward to when they leave.
Whilst I can’t check my emails, if you want to get in touch with me please send a message to firstname.lastname@example.org, and if appropriate it will be passed on.
Every couple of weeks, a friend will be posting on this blog on my behalf. I will describe life in prison, the daily challenges and hopefully the rewarding work.
I am looking forward to putting this all behind me, and the day I can hug my family a free man.